Letting go...

     Sometimes it just seems like it's so much easier to just keep my mouth shut and let everyone blow smoke in the air. It really gets me how times have changed in a blink of an eye. 7 years ago I would have flipped out several times in the last week.
     I'm 25 years old, I've been on my own for a decade, I take care of my own children,  my own house,  and our religious and academic education.  Why do I need people telling what and how to conduct my life and children?  I will not have people telling me how things will be handled in my house.  It is between my husband and I, not every busy body in the world that wants to put their two cents in.
     I also don't like people playing favorites or saying they wish myself or my children were like someone else. You get what you see. I wouldn't ever want to be someone else or ask my children to change who they are to conform to someone else's mold. I want my children to look in the mirror and like who they see looking back at them. Hopefully one day I get there, I'm definitely on the right path though.
    I would have blown my top and acted very dramatic a few short years ago by the ignorant selfish things that have been said the last week on our "vacation" but the fight isn't worth it and we are going to take the higher road by not stooping. I won't be walked over but no use in fighting with someone set in their mind. You can only control your own life and how your story goes.
     We are at the farm now finally on our travels.  The closer this gets the more uncertain I am. At this point praying is all I can do. Tomorrow we are off to the cow palace and auction house that hopefully puts me in a good mood.