Uncertainties

     Well plans for our day changed fast. My husband forgot to take one of the car seats out of his vehicle before leaving to work so the kids and I did laundry and worked in the school room for a good part of the day.

     Change is a very exciting thing that should, to an extent, be embraced with opened arms. Our family loves adventures and we try to look at change as a new journey. Sometimes,  it is not so easy to stay up beat and positive about change.

     For as long as we have been together the military has been part of our family. It is a steady pay check, a support system, and a chapter turner. They have allowed us to see different places and meet many different people.  Our time with the Army is coming to an end though. This time next year the kids and I will be back in Texas waiting for my love to return to us from wrapping things up here.

    The uncertainty of employment and providing for our family makes me very uneasy.  We are struggling now to make it after dealing with the move and everything that comes with it. I've been in worse but promised to never go back to those days. So it truly is leaving me very unsettled. 

     I've never been a go getter when it came to building relationships with people. As much as I'd like to give people the benefit of the doubt I've been burned too many times. It never really mattered in this life though.  If you didn't hit it off with people there just wait 9months to a year. Either you would move or the people around you would. We will be "setting down roots" which means if I don't click with the people I probably won't ever click.

     As uneasy as I am about everything the excitement is bubbling.  We will finally get out of the city and out in to the country with our family, cows, chickens, cat, dogs, horses, and rabbits. It has been our dream from the beginning to raise our kids in the country on our own land growing and building. We want to be able to look back and say hey this is all the way it is because we did it... together...