Friday, June 9, 2017

Careful what you wish for

I started this year wanting to change our stars and that is still the goal. However, I made the horrible mistake of complaining about and praying for our life to be less mundane. 

Oh boy did I screw that one up! 

I pretty much got laid off at work. They cannot afford to keep me on so I am looking for a new job, but have not received a call back. My vehicle is running but until we get a new shift motor and tires it might as well not be. We are so close to financially get some breathing room when for some stupid reason the bank sent our check back even though the checks have been going there for 3 years now. Logan got bucked off a horse and broke him arm, hello medical bills. My husband's grandmother was taken to the hospital and the results were not good. Everyone is very stressed out about her health and rightfully so. 

I want so bad to get rid of a lot of our meaningless possessions. Declutter or lives and move on to more enjoyable things. I have started this process some by downsizing our clothes. Still have a long way to go but it is a start. 

Nothing has gone right today and the stress is heavy, but with the sound of my children enjoying the summer and watching the kittens play cheerfully, my heart is light. 

I know God has a reason and something great planned for us. I just can't give up hope and keep moving forward.